i am having a stomachache. its quite bad. i wonder if its the icecream. so much for being a glutton. my legs are kinda like jelly now. aiya.

i am very tired that i dont feel like taking a shower.

afternoon nap is like so fun that i didnt want to wake up. but i had to go for tuition. anyone has some interesting way of teaching math?

aiya. my lips are so dry that it hurts. not the whole thing but at the side where it hurts when i try to open my mouth.

i like it when we encourage each other to depend on God's strength to do His work. and i had fun today. i hope i will not get discourage when i dont have fun but strive harder.

i have been out for the whole week. monday was YE meeting, tuesday work and tuition, wednesday dinner and thursday games comm meeting. friday, there is actually worship rehearsal which i am dying to go and encourage our musicians but i figured out that i OUGHT to stay home and have dinner with my ma. i miss her so much.

i miss buns too. and ming. will the respective people please call me and pass it back to me? thank you very much. actually not buns lah. she is my love, what to do.

i am trying to recall what i want to say.

oh. i have been bugging sarah and joash to get me more bookbinders books. but they turned me down flatly. talk about love for the fellow brothers and sisters man. actually i dont really need it, i just want it cos its so pretty. but i can do without it. i just want to talk. hahas. and i finished li en's book. its pretty. like her.

okay. i am making handmade Christmas cards again this year. i have absolutely no money to go to the printers to get it printed. so hahahahahahas, all you people out there are getting handmade ones. not the pro looking printed expensive looking ones. hahahas.

since i told mr yeo already, i think its fine for me to say it here. i wont make it to the 60th anniversary dinner. yea. i need security and i realised that in their new plan, there is none, in the sense that you dont really need to committ yourself. but i think if you want to nurture someone, you need to spend time with that person mentoring him/her/it and its not a few months sort of thing but a continuous effort to help him/her/it grow. so i cannot agree with it and i am not growing there and i am not helping anyone grow and i dont want to touch and go even though the new plans sort of encourage it. i dont want to be known as red cross but only goes down six days out of three hundred and sixty five and a quarter. so i rather spend my time doing things that is much for fulfilling for me, red cross is good, perhaps i cannot committ, so it is not good for me, there are people who is benefitting so much from it and is contributing so much to it. those are the people i respect. but i have learnt much from it and really enjoyed those days, lest for the times when i felt redundant which is like most of the time but its okay. because i believe you have to make the effort to fit in. perhaps i didnt put in effort.

okay. whatever, i am going to sleep now and make some craft tomorrow morning before drawing.

hahas. smiley face here i come!