yesterday i met people.

today i went to the hospital. to visit john's mum with his cell group. i have only met her once three years ago. at her husband's, whom i never met before, funeral. i felt abit awkward. but john later told us that her mother appeared much happier and responsive when we went and then i thought, if it helps, i will go again.

we went to kenny rogers. we went there before. i shared the meal with angelene i think. it feels so strange that william stuffed ten dollars to me telling me that he will pay for part of my meal. and he and josephine sent me to the bus stop. we took rongchang's car to greatworld which is driven by joshua. its kinda interesting that he was counting spgs at greatworld. and its kinda interesting how i am taking cars driven by new drivers lately.

i listened to jianfu last night and i talked to auntie karfoon today. it has spurred me into wanting to take action but i cant let go. but she is right and he is also right and i...

i dont think not being about to talk politics and economy makes one shallow. its an expertise. some people that i look up to cant talk politics either, but they know that inner mongolia is hot and paris is beautiful and people in new zealand are friendly. they know that the effiel tower actually was not made to last for so long and they know things that i dont know. and each one of us has something that someone dont know. to distract william from the birthday cake i talked about phillip starck and john commented that i get very excited when i talk about things that i like. i like to hear them talk about japan and hot springs and sashimi and the sinking puppet. i like the way they share their lives and care about others. they dont talk politics but they are not shallow. find something that you know and that is enough. but all of us need to consistently learn and improve. i am still learning how draw and paint. and to write.

i dont want to say anymore cos i just want to sleep and hope i can wake up early enough for a little jog.