my back is aching. i cut myself. had a fall and i am tired. i want to talk to mum but i dont know what to say.

i dont want to go to school.

art friend sucks. if i give you a paper sample, i need you to look at it. crappy stuff you sold me.

i've got class with hon tomorrow. i know he hates me. i screwed up so badly in his classes before.

today we had some directors list thingy again. and so i am on it again. but i am not at all happy. it is just reminding me how lousy i am. i am a crap student. like, real crap. piece of junk. no, it is not low self esteem.

i am only giving one Christmas present this year. because i bought one and realised that it is over the budget. so too bad people, you still can claim your hugs and kisses though. i have plenty.

if only someone would make me smile.