dear you*,
i really miss you*,
like miss you alot.
but i dont want to
always be the one
to message you* first,
then you ignore it.
i dont like it.
but i really miss you*.
and i love you* lots (:

i am going to learn to enjoy time by myself again.
i started to like it around this time two years ago.
i will try again. from the same place i started.
I AM GOING BACK TO EXPLORE CHINATOWN!
i missed out lots of alleys and stuff.
i will go to them this time round.
the shophouses,
all the way up to tanjong pagar,
where the skyscrapers are.
if you see me, say hi, alright?
i am giving up trying to explore holland v.
holland v is just not pretty enough.
but holland v got lots of memories.
those that i dont wanna forget.

feeling strange. but amanda could be right.
so much closeness, then being lonely again.
it takes time to get used to it.
i will get used to it.
i never want to be close again.
so i wont have to learn to be alone again.

andrew you are starting school!
ready to rock the world?
hahs.
its your last part of the academic race for now,
like me. do your best!

i was feeling really happy after service today.
i enjoy the worship in service a little more today
than in ye.
i forgot the song i so loved today,
i will go to service more and find out.
then i will write down.
so i wont forget.
rev soon's sermon moved in me a little slow,
a little too slowly.
but it moved me in the end.
how we live our lives with Christ enfleshed in us.
i am not sure if thats the way to phrase it.
i get it in my head, but i cant seem to write it out.

i dont know what to say anymore.
so i'll put this song.
really nice.
look at the lyrics:
Purify my heart
let me be as gold and precious silver
Purify my heart,
let me be as gold, pure gold

CHORUS:
Refiner's fire
My heart's one desire
is to be holy
set apart for You Lord.
I choose to be holy
set apart for you my master,
ready to do your will.

Purify my heart,
cleanse me from within and make me holy.
Purify my heart,
cleanse me from my sin, deep within

i realised that i have got a couple of dates this week.
i hope so.
(: