i have truly been annoying people.
if you are the one,
i am sorry.
if you are not one,
praise God.
getting very short tempered
and impatient
and extremely moodswingy.
i wish i could have that kind
of courage like yours to tell
someone that you are
truly pissed with him.
too bad i dont.
and thank God i dont.
i am in this pretty bad state.

my name is shirley.
S-H-I-R-L-E-Y.
i thought you knew better.
thats why i like ley.
cos its mine and yours.

haha.

the yous are getting confusing.
i am lost too.

i am lost without YOU

are the yous confusing?
find yours.
the big you is God.
lost without YOU.
i pray for the right words to say.

if there is a camp this year.
i want to attend.
but i dont want to be camp comm.
i want to enjoy camp.
but i think i wont know how.
cos every since sec 3, there
is only one camp i attended as
a participant.
2002 camp rocks.
cos i am camp commandant.
hahahahhahahahahhaa.
thats so funny.
no lah.
we were talking about camp
during cell.
cos john was camp commandant before
me. 2000.
he came for the concert night in 2002
shook my hands and said, well done.
it wasnt actually well done.
but being part of it was cool.
i love the camp photos.
but i never got it.
and i never got the negs back.
i will just imagine.
hehee.

i dont want to lend darl.
cos what happened with my darling
is enough to daunt me.
i am very scared.
but that shows that i am attached to
things again.
i am going to make it really clear.
if anything goes wrong,
you'll be responsible.










































(:
i am being irritating.
smirk.

i know the word.
finally.
i wont put it here.
i will forget eventually.

my selfishness is getting in the way
of me knowing God and helping others.
i am selfish.