I'VE GOT SO MUCH FRUSTRATION but I don't know what to do. I ended up playing with my keys on the road when there's no cars. I kept throwing my keys up and down and up and down and up and down. I started stomping around in the carpark. And after opening the letterbox, I criticised the design and crushed the leaflet, covered my face with it and attempted to scare my brother. Yah, like it works. Ha ha. Now I am singing at the top of my voice.

During lunch today, Junhao was talking to me. We were talking about why they give and it's not because of hoping God will give more or having anything in return. But they give because they have received. I think Junhao was trying to teach me something. Yah. Actually it's true, anyone can give, but as Christians, we give out of the love God has shown to us. Yeah?! Ya lah. Don't argue with me. Junhao is this strange brother in Christ. Throughout my Christian walk, he has somehow, in very subtle ways touched me. He tries to make his every conversation with people meaningful, though we do crap sometimes, but I am glad I am with the Junior side. I remember going for the BB67th camp where they made fun of me endlessly, and the Children Ministry Camp where they invited me to go with them to KL, the retreat at Sentosa with Uncle WaiLung, the GB58th camp in church, BB CARES, Junhao's chalet at Coasta Sands, the uno game. Sometimes I get scared to go out with them because they are already very close, but they will always extend that hand to welcome me. And I am very thankful. I think sometimes it's fellowship like this that you grow. (:

I got a five dollars pay increase. Woohoo~ Perhaps she is just trying to save on the angpows. I got two angpows the last time. From Kok Eng's grandmother and mother. And I didn't even bring oranges up because I didn't even think of getting angpows from them. I bought something for Kok Eng two years ago for Christmas, but after losing my phone, I kinda lost contact with her. Sighs. And she didn't even call me. I hope she is well. I haven't been praying for her.

This is two hours into typing this.

Heys Andrew, if you ever talk to Rev Tong, please don't mention what I typed about him. It's so embarassing. Haha. I hope you're fine though. (: Am good man! Except that schoolwork is piling up. Haha. The perils of last semester students.

When I was coming home from tuition, in the NEL, I saw a father and his daughter. He bought tickets for Disney on Ice. Three tickets. They looks so sweet together. And I always like seeing old couples on the bus. Then they will hold hands. That's so sweet too. Like my grandparents. But my grandparents always bicker and they don't hold hands. Hehee.

I remember our little open secret. No one knows so much of it like you and me. (: And I like it when you told me it's okay. And I love that picture of you on the ride. And you were only there when I was seven. Next year I am twenty one. Maybe we can find somewhere near and maybe you can be there.

You haven't been online for so long. At least I haven't seen ya. Say hi! when you see me online okay? Hehee.

真担心只用花瓣只能盖到手一般的大小。还是找大一点的花。
哈哈哈。
好啦。写到这里也够了。没话说了。啦啦啦。
不哭了。过了。哭了一整个月了。没眼泪了。
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