i guess from the moment i said i wont be going down anymore, i am kinda out of their lives. sighs. its kinda sad, y'know, i mean it was really fun when it lasted. we influence people by the way we live our lives. i hope i have touched one or two in a unique shirley way. i havent felt this way since i decided.

anyway, on a brighter note, i spit out an alien just now. haha. it was a mass of green gooey stuff. its horrible. i am giving up my fight. i will go see the doc. i hate seeing the doctor most when i have no need for mc.

i had nana on my bed last night. i coughed and i sneezed and i wheezed through the night. so now, no more soft toy on the bed. but i like nana. she is my comfort toy. i feel very reassured when i look at her. haha, she is a v-day toy from a loved one years ago. we got her at taka. whats the name of yours? i forgot? i can only see shanshan. hahaaa.

i was packing my room. i am not done yet. i realised that i could put a few b/w photos for my portfolio. i did a few good ones. okay, one or two. during derek's class.


am i meeting huimin tonight?
(: