2.19

just got back from supper and coffee with junhao, cat, leng, john. their friends, zhicong and ray came by for a little while. i was supposed to be up at eight to go shopping with them, but when cat called, i simply mumbled into the phone. then jiayi steph called. we are going shopping tomorrow! birkies here i come. hahahaa. and a white polo tee. i must remember.

i really dont feel like brushing my teeth for the fourth time today. but considering what i ate just now, i think i should. this blog is getting monotonous by the day. but i will keep typing cos i quite like to type. haha.

i really like this group of people. alot. i am gonna give this cell a treat when i get my first pay in august/september. they are not my cell actually but i would like to join them, so i hope my cell can merge with this cell so we become one cell. sighs. i hate thinking about that.

whoa. and did you see the really nice gift that john, joshua and serene bought for baby thaddeus? it was awesome, its an addidas jacket and pants. and also a lesson by josh on graduating brands. i must really get something nice for the little baby that we are so looking forward to. thaddeus thaddeus. one thing for sure, thaddeus is gonna get lotsa buttons, cos thaddeus daddy contributed ten dollars to the machine. hahahahaa.

i am very tired. i cannot fall sick till after tuesday. and have to get well before saturday. not much time. i am gonna sleep through wednesday. and i see if i can go to the beach on thursday. friday should be rest and saturday is bikeforbibles. i owe catherine ten dollars.

i think my neighbours got disturbed just now. i was almost shouting downstairs. john was stressed into sending me to the lift lobby. probably starting as a group of close friends, and having mentors to guide them by the Word, they are like children hungry for milk. which is cool, thats why each bible study session with them is very fruitful, challenging me to grow in the Word/prayer to fuel my passion for Christ. i pray for my youth cell to be spiritually hungry - but discerning.

why is everyone so afraid of being alone? each time i talk to someone, they will be like, dont want la, i will be alone or i will be left out. i think if you dont like aloneness, theres nothing others can help but one thing is being alone is not being lonely. i like the time alone as much as the times i emjoy with God, family and friends. the left out part right, i will ask - are you doing your part as well? it takes two hands to clap and people need time to build up rapport and for the ice to melt. if you feel left out and you dont come, how are people gonna make you feel welcome. as much as you are intimidated by new people, others will also be slightly defensive, i mean we all want to protect our own interests, so take time and get comfortable slowly la. i didnt start off in YE with a bang either, after coming for more than ten times, i still get introduced in the start. thats quite funny. hahaa.


lalalala. i am sorry i am crapping already.

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