i got somewhat of a revelation just a moment ago. haha. i cant find the tickets for my graduation ceremony. and i forgot what time must i go to school and i havent call my darl to pass me the sleeping bag and i am feeling tired despite coming home early from work today.

i dont like a lot of things lately. what i enjoy a lot is coffeebreak. i like cafe mocha with plenty of whipped cream at starbucks. i like the chocolate powder on top of the whipped cream. i dont like it in a disposable cups. disposables irritate me a lot strangely. as much as i know i can make cafe mocha at home with milo and coffee, i like starbucks. so i go to starbucks. (: i kinda like that thing that mr john drinks at brekos. its sweet and sweet. stuff that i like. i like the ice cream in the cafe mocha at terracafe whatever the name is, but i dont really like the coffee. i like the godzilla drink at the coffee shop.

i dont like people pretending to understand me. i think each person is a complex thing that cannot be understood fully. i dont people to question me unless the issue of accountability is being raised. i dont like people to act smartass with me. i hate it when i do that too.

i have issues with myself that i cant resolve but i dont want to talk about it because it would be like the other time where i cant articulate myself and then i dont know how to tell people but after a while, it seems like God saw the desires in my heart and then made all things fine after a long long struggle. struggles are like papercuts. i dont know why but everything seems like papercuts to me. havent got papercuts cos i havent been doing anything. i cant decide whether its a major booboo or a minor booboo. with all that booboos, reminds me of that booboo toy i had which i brought to unclewilliam&auntyjo's house. and with all that booboos, i just cant wait for the baby to be out.

thursday feels important to me. somewhat. a little. i cant believe that theres no eyecandy that i hope to see when i go back to school. HOW TRAGIC CAN DESIGN BE?! hahaa. i am just kidding.

whats going on on thursday
1. my last day at work.
2. my graduation ceremony.
3. aunty jo's birthday.
4. something that i was telling baby that day. made mummy so confused why was i whispering to her baby.

i couldnt think of anything at work today. i was so unproductive that i have decided to bring my work home to do. its not really fair if i dont do tangible work when i am paid by the hour. its not like 1602 where i dont mind surfing for pictures and illustrations for a whole day. it just doesnt feel that way at BSS. i feel more compelled to do WORK.

with school starting, i feel i like coffee more and more. yesterday was a dontknowwhatatthemoment to go for coffee. then aicheng said she would go with me so it was like really nice cos shes so wise.

they asked why do i have to leave so early when school is two weeks away. i guess i need to clean up stuff and all. i miss them already. they are really cool people.

(: