i feel kinda stupid in school. academically challenged. i feel so pathetic saying that. then you wonder, how stupid is your stupid. its stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID.

today dr agnes did stuff on self esteem. how timely. i could identify with the low self esteem part. haha, just kidding la. i think i am pretty much in control of how i feel. a closer walk with God makes things so much better. like junhao shared, his walk with God determines everything else. i feel like that too. i am desperate for You, Lord!

we went for the welcome tea by the humanities and social sciences something something academic group. i think huimin needs to teach me how to show appropriate social behaviour. i just kept quiet there, cos half the time i cant understand dr karl who was drowned out by the geography peeps.

ian won third for his essay. the 100 word one! congrats man!

dimsum dollies was not too bad. but remind me, no staying out on wednesdays, tuesdays and sundays, cos the next days i have eightthirty lectures. woke up at 645. can you imagine all my anxiety. by the grace of God, made it well on time! thank you Lord!

i am not going to stay in the library the whole 6h tomorrow. will spend 2h there doing some research and readings, another 2h doing the RUB thing, and another 2h shooting with my lomo with all the old expired film uncle william gave me. at any time, i feel hot and tired, i will just go back to the library!

i am gonna make myself an egg sandwich for lunch and a ham and cheese for breakfast. hehee. i feel so glad that i have tomorrow somehow planned out.

i stink now. i think. haha.
sent crystal home just now. thought it wasnt safe for a 9yearold to walk home alone at 9pm. after i sent her home, i got so scared of the dark, i started running back to church. only mr john and i turned up for SLIC today. before he came, it was only me and there was three groups of people. arghh! didnt panic though. haha.

i smell. buay tahan. must go bathe.

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